This morning as I sit here and prepare to share some of the most glam and beautiful photos I have ever done, I am struggling personally. Struggling the way most curvier women struggle. The dreaded thoughts that leak into your brain, that you just can’t stop and you know come from a bad place. The “I am the biggest girl in the room” thoughts. Part of why I created Curls and Contours was to work through some of these feelings. As I settle in to the body that I am meant to have and I work to overcome these self conscious thoughts, I have days when its a struggle. What woman wants to be the biggest girl in the room, and what woman wants to have those thoughts. Its fucking ridiculous, its ridiculous that I can have it all but still have these shitty little feelings that come leaking in to my brain. I shouldn’t feel this way, I am fabulous and beautiful, I eat healthy and move my body. I have nothing to prove , I have spent most of my life on a diet of some kind. I have been told that if I just try this or I just only eat that. Then all my skinny girl dreams will come true. WHAT IS THAT. Why can’t I just be happy and love myself, did you know that if you love yourself you will actually make better choices BECAUSE of that love. Sometimes, I forget this sometimes I let that mean hateful girl that hides in the darkest corner of my brain tell me things that just hurt. Eventually I regain my confidence, and regular programming returns. I can go back to my usual fabulous self.
Ok, off the pity party soap box.
THIS DRESS! I found this while cruising through the fall Nordstrom clear the rack sale. I fell in love, and had the wonderful people at Nordstrom Rack order me up one size. Because I am constantly buying clothing that is too big for me, the dress came in and was TOO BIG. So I had it tailored(by my amazing Aunt), and we made some changes. The length of the slip had to go, it was just to much, we took in the waist but left the bosom loose and flowy. I think I need a 1920’s themed party to attend, this little number would be perfect at a wedding or a cocktail party. Once again, the powers of a perfectly tailored dress just doesn’t disappoint.